被真理唤醒的心(104)

劳教所每个牢房的墙上都装有扩音器。

我被关在“后院”时，每天白天，它以撕裂耳膜的高分贝播放中共诽谤大法的宣传；晚上，我被关进录像室继续遭受强制洗脑。

当时隔壁牢房有位弟子在绝食。“挟控”透露她已经顽强绝食几个月了。每天早中晚三次，看守、劳教所医生和“挟控”合力在牢房里给她插胃管，强行灌食。

每次灌食前，看守都命令“挟控”把“后院”牢房的窗户关死，然后将扩音器开到最大声，以防止我们大法弟子在牢房里听到她们野蛮灌食时发出的声音。

在黑暗又门窗紧闭的小牢房里，整天整天听着扩音器里以疯狂的高分贝播放诽谤大法弟子杀人的宣传，有一瞬间我突然感到我要崩溃了！我再也忍受不了了！

这时我一下想起三大队教导员和施酷刑的打手都对我说过的话：“我们才不怕你死了疯了呢！到时我们就说是炼法轮功炼的！”

我马上清醒过来，在心里对自己说：“我决不能被邪恶折磨疯！！我决不能给邪恶机会诽谤大法！！我一定要坚强！！不管多大的魔难，我一定要挺过去！！”（待续）

(英文对照)

Every cell had a loudspeaker on the wall in Chatou.

While I was in Back Yard, the loudspeaker ceaselessly blared out the CCP propaganda at an eardrum-tearing volume during daytime; and at night, I suffered brainwashing in the video room.

During the time, a fellow practitioner in the next cell was on hunger strike. I heard from the watching-inmates’ talking that she had been on hunger strike for a few months perseveringly.

Morning, noon and night, three times a day, the guards, doctors and watching–inmates force-fed her by inserting a tube into her stomach from her nostril.

Every time before the force-feeding, the guards ordered the watching-inmates to close the Back Yard cells’ windows, and turned the volume of the loudspeakers up to the maximum, attempting to prevent the other Dafa practitioners from hearing the sound the brutal force-feeding produced.

Being imprisoned in a dark, tiny cell where the door and windows were tightly shut, forced to listen to the propaganda blared out at a crazy volume over a loudspeaker that slandered Dafa practitioners killed people all day long, day after day after day, there was an instant I suddenly felt ready to break down! I couldn’t endure it anymore!

At the moment I suddenly recalled what the Third Brigade chief and torturers once said to me, “We are not afraid at all even if you die or become deranged! We would just tell people Falun Gong did that to you!”

I instantly regained my senses and told myself, “I must in no circumstances be tortured to derangement by evil!! I must in no circumstances give evil a chance to slander Dafa!! I must be tough!! However tremendous the tribulations, I must break through them!!”

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